So! Who would have guessed it eh!?! A new blog post after all these many months! Why the change? Well the equation goes something like this... at school + nothing to do = a new blog post!
It is a Sunday afternoon and I'm on duty in the dorm therefore I cannot go to Timmy's or for a drive, I am, alas, trapped within the confines of my room. There are white walls all around me, a few lights and a window that allows me to look and watch as people drive by on the freeway, continuing their normal lives while I...sit and rot in my room and think about...random things really. For example, the other day I saw this comic portraying a little girl holding a diary close to her heart, in the top corner it said 1950's and the girl is yelling at her mom "Its private!" Then beside that one was another girl sitting on her laptop, the caption, 2008, and she is complaining to her mom, "man only 103,000 people have viewed my blog today!" Crazy how times change! I began thinking about how our lives our so private when 'real' people are around us and this isn't a bad thing. However, online, we share photos, talk about our deepest thoughts, talk to people we barely know and the craziest part of it all is that it feels normal. I notice how at times I will be talking to someone online and a 'real' person will come and start talking to me and I'm thinking "how rude, they are interrupting my conversation!" My goodness, how times have changed. Last fall the power went off in the dorm which meant no more internet, period! Suddenly the lobby was full and people began talking to each other. I find it crazy how we know so much about our 'neighbors' online and yet we may not even know who lives in the house next to us. What is the difference? Perhaps it is that we tell ourselves we are still safe, if the conversation gets to deep, oops internet cut out, whereas in person people can read our expressions, we have to be real and honestly in today's world it is hard to be real because we do not really know who we are. The media tells us who we should be, how we should act and dress and the music we listen to also dictates much of this. We end up with a generation that only really has an online identity but in real life has no idea.
Anyways, I have gone on long enough. I do believe I am going to go and find something useful to do, not sure what, but something. :) Have a great day!!
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
Last Post was October ... Wow!
I honestly forgot I even had a blog until Christmas vacation when my dear family reminded me. With facebook and hotmail it is easy to bypass this altogether. However, for the sake of whoever may happen to be checking this I thought I would post a new one...just for kicks.
It is currently 1:10 am and in all honesty I have no reason for being up. I am back at school now and have very little homework as of yet so I should be sleeping. The older I get the more I discover I do my best thinking at night, about life, plans, school, events, etc. Thankfully I do not have to worry about getting up early as I have no Tuesday, Thursday classes this semester. However, my Monday, Wednesday classes are maddening. From 7:40 am - 9pm I'm in class with a few breaks in between, Friday I'm there until noon.
Christmas vacation felt like it went too fast yet at the same time I know life goes on and no matter how much, at times, I want to drag my feet the world continues turning so I may as well keep up. I find the older I get the faster the world seems to turn which means the faster I have to make decisions and the faster I have to go when in reality all I want to do is hit pause and just chill. I suppose being busy is actually a privilege in that it allows a person to appreciate doing nothing, just relaxing. Just like being thirsty makes a person appreciate water or hungry to food. This makes me laugh as I think that maybe I should take a break from school so I can appreciate homework. I stare above my computer and I see bulging binders and books and textbooks and all I can do is shake my head. All that knowledge! I know I have read it, taken notes at one point so its in my brain somewhere...but where? All this homework and schoolwork, countless hours in a classroom and I feel as though I retain very little of what is said. This makes me wonder something else...If computers were non-existent, if I did not just have all this at my finger tips, would I appreciate it more, would I long for it? This leads to another question...if I did not have six or seven Bibles, if God did not feel so accessible, would I long for him more? Perhaps this is why we sometimes experience hard times. Its not God's way of punishing but merely reminding us that he is there and that we can rely on him, we can't do it all ourselves. It seems to be him reminding us that there is something better to come and that this is all temporary. Our measly seventy to ninety years on earth are merely a blink of the eye compared to what we could have. The trial that seems insurmountable today is, in reality, in the grand scheme of things, merely a pin prick. If you have ever climbed a mountain or hill you realize how much you can see. From above you look down and notice the hills and they seem so small. Yet when you are walking down below, those hills, that from above seem so small, feel as though they are mountains! I suppose I am writing this blog to remind myself that everything will be alright. Right now another semester looms high above me casting shadows of financial doubt, homework, jobs, scheduling, traveling, family, and more. Yet when I look back I realize all was fine. I made it this far, I can keep going...but sometimes even the strongest people need help. Sometimes it's nice to just let God help...that's where I need a few lessons. Just stepping back and letting God take over. I'll do my part and trust that he will do his. This semester will finish, the buds on the trees will come out, the flowers will open and the temperature will warm significantly reminding me that summer is around the corner and with it new life, a second chance.
It is currently 1:10 am and in all honesty I have no reason for being up. I am back at school now and have very little homework as of yet so I should be sleeping. The older I get the more I discover I do my best thinking at night, about life, plans, school, events, etc. Thankfully I do not have to worry about getting up early as I have no Tuesday, Thursday classes this semester. However, my Monday, Wednesday classes are maddening. From 7:40 am - 9pm I'm in class with a few breaks in between, Friday I'm there until noon.
Christmas vacation felt like it went too fast yet at the same time I know life goes on and no matter how much, at times, I want to drag my feet the world continues turning so I may as well keep up. I find the older I get the faster the world seems to turn which means the faster I have to make decisions and the faster I have to go when in reality all I want to do is hit pause and just chill. I suppose being busy is actually a privilege in that it allows a person to appreciate doing nothing, just relaxing. Just like being thirsty makes a person appreciate water or hungry to food. This makes me laugh as I think that maybe I should take a break from school so I can appreciate homework. I stare above my computer and I see bulging binders and books and textbooks and all I can do is shake my head. All that knowledge! I know I have read it, taken notes at one point so its in my brain somewhere...but where? All this homework and schoolwork, countless hours in a classroom and I feel as though I retain very little of what is said. This makes me wonder something else...If computers were non-existent, if I did not just have all this at my finger tips, would I appreciate it more, would I long for it? This leads to another question...if I did not have six or seven Bibles, if God did not feel so accessible, would I long for him more? Perhaps this is why we sometimes experience hard times. Its not God's way of punishing but merely reminding us that he is there and that we can rely on him, we can't do it all ourselves. It seems to be him reminding us that there is something better to come and that this is all temporary. Our measly seventy to ninety years on earth are merely a blink of the eye compared to what we could have. The trial that seems insurmountable today is, in reality, in the grand scheme of things, merely a pin prick. If you have ever climbed a mountain or hill you realize how much you can see. From above you look down and notice the hills and they seem so small. Yet when you are walking down below, those hills, that from above seem so small, feel as though they are mountains! I suppose I am writing this blog to remind myself that everything will be alright. Right now another semester looms high above me casting shadows of financial doubt, homework, jobs, scheduling, traveling, family, and more. Yet when I look back I realize all was fine. I made it this far, I can keep going...but sometimes even the strongest people need help. Sometimes it's nice to just let God help...that's where I need a few lessons. Just stepping back and letting God take over. I'll do my part and trust that he will do his. This semester will finish, the buds on the trees will come out, the flowers will open and the temperature will warm significantly reminding me that summer is around the corner and with it new life, a second chance.
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