Last Post was October ... Wow!

I honestly forgot I even had a blog until Christmas vacation when my dear family reminded me. With facebook and hotmail it is easy to bypass this altogether. However, for the sake of whoever may happen to be checking this I thought I would post a new one...just for kicks.
It is currently 1:10 am and in all honesty I have no reason for being up. I am back at school now and have very little homework as of yet so I should be sleeping. The older I get the more I discover I do my best thinking at night, about life, plans, school, events, etc. Thankfully I do not have to worry about getting up early as I have no Tuesday, Thursday classes this semester. However, my Monday, Wednesday classes are maddening. From 7:40 am - 9pm I'm in class with a few breaks in between, Friday I'm there until noon.
Christmas vacation felt like it went too fast yet at the same time I know life goes on and no matter how much, at times, I want to drag my feet the world continues turning so I may as well keep up. I find the older I get the faster the world seems to turn which means the faster I have to make decisions and the faster I have to go when in reality all I want to do is hit pause and just chill. I suppose being busy is actually a privilege in that it allows a person to appreciate doing nothing, just relaxing. Just like being thirsty makes a person appreciate water or hungry to food. This makes me laugh as I think that maybe I should take a break from school so I can appreciate homework. I stare above my computer and I see bulging binders and books and textbooks and all I can do is shake my head. All that knowledge! I know I have read it, taken notes at one point so its in my brain somewhere...but where? All this homework and schoolwork, countless hours in a classroom and I feel as though I retain very little of what is said. This makes me wonder something else...If computers were non-existent, if I did not just have all this at my finger tips, would I appreciate it more, would I long for it? This leads to another question...if I did not have six or seven Bibles, if God did not feel so accessible, would I long for him more? Perhaps this is why we sometimes experience hard times. Its not God's way of punishing but merely reminding us that he is there and that we can rely on him, we can't do it all ourselves. It seems to be him reminding us that there is something better to come and that this is all temporary. Our measly seventy to ninety years on earth are merely a blink of the eye compared to what we could have. The trial that seems insurmountable today is, in reality, in the grand scheme of things, merely a pin prick. If you have ever climbed a mountain or hill you realize how much you can see. From above you look down and notice the hills and they seem so small. Yet when you are walking down below, those hills, that from above seem so small, feel as though they are mountains! I suppose I am writing this blog to remind myself that everything will be alright. Right now another semester looms high above me casting shadows of financial doubt, homework, jobs, scheduling, traveling, family, and more. Yet when I look back I realize all was fine. I made it this far, I can keep going...but sometimes even the strongest people need help. Sometimes it's nice to just let God help...that's where I need a few lessons. Just stepping back and letting God take over. I'll do my part and trust that he will do his. This semester will finish, the buds on the trees will come out, the flowers will open and the temperature will warm significantly reminding me that summer is around the corner and with it new life, a second chance.